Is it me or does it feel like the world just sucks right now? The news feels full of nothing but tragedy, war, tension, grief…fear. In thinking about the events of the last couple of months, I think about what John pointed out in the Katy Kafe that Rhonda blogged about yesterday (you can read that here), which is that concerts are supposed to be safe places, away from society’s ills. Concerts are supposed to be escape, including Duran Duran concerts. They are meant to be fun, a party. Attendees can forget about their lives, their problems, their frustrations and just have a good time. This idea is such a strong one for me that I find myself thinking more about show when my world is less than ideal. My desire to go on tour grows as I find myself more and more frustrated with “real life”. I didn’t really realize that, though, until this very week.
I hate the weeks at work right after a little vacation. I know that I should feel refreshed and full of patience but the exact opposite seems to happen. Annoyance and irritability creep in quickly when I realize how short my break actually was. I joked this week that I forgot about being rested from vacation about 15 minutes into the school day on Monday morning after looking at my email about upcoming staff meetings. How did I deal with this crabby mood? Simple. I started thinking about Duran shows. Were my thoughts about Duran shows fed by seeing tweets and posts from friends on tour in the UK? Absolutely. Did it help that Rhonda sent me a video clip she had found from the Manchester show? Of course! I started to think about how much I wanted Duran shows to look forward to! I wanted to put my energy into something fun as opposed to frustrating like work or upsetting like national or international news. I wanted that escape that we know Duran shows give!
Interestingly enough, the most recent Katy Kafe has only increased my desire to focus on upcoming Duran shows or an upcoming Duran tour because John Taylor mentioned a plan to tour the US in 2016. He said that they hoped to do shows here in the spring and another wave of shows in August at outdoor venues. Now, the normal, not-annoyed-with-world Amanda would objectively ponder details like: When would presales happen? Will I have money to get tickets then? Could they just announce the dates THEN do presales like a month or so later? Should they be playing outdoor venues in the HEAT of SUMMER? Nick got sick during a similar tour in 2012. Is that the best course of action for them or us? Yet, I don’t feel like things are very normal right now. I don’t want to be practical. I don’t want to be afraid that these spring dates will be such that they are super hard for me and/or Rhonda to attend. I don’t want to worry about money. No, I want that escape. I want…no…NEED a break from reality. I need the fun.
Will the always-practical Amanda return? Probably. I’m sure that even if tour dates came out tomorrow and presales followed quickly after that, I wouldn’t buy tickets to all shows as much as I would want to. I would end up factoring work, cost, timing, family duties, etc. as Rhonda would do the same. After thinking it all through, we would make the best decisions we could while considering all of our responsibilities. Maturity would reign. Still, I can’t help wishing for the escape, the escape from the world’s problems and personal frustrations. I also wish that I could just let go of responsibilities for awhile and just do whatever in order to have fun. I long to be a little crazy, a little impulsive. I guess part of me just wishes that I could say to work, “Bye work. I’m leaving to go on tour. I’ll be back when it is done. Maybe.” As I always point out, dreams are free.
On that note, does anyone else have good Duran clips that you have seen that would provide me with some joy, some real world avoidance?! Maybe I’ll just watch the video Rhonda sent me again here: