Duran Duran has been doing a lot of promotion lately, so it seems. These are fun times for Duranies with all of the TV and radio appearances. Normally, I would be commenting on the latest and I might later in the weekend but not today. Last night, I came home to find my beloved cat, Othello, unable to move his back legs and he was crying in pain. After a quick call to the emergency vets, my mom (who was dropping off food at my house at the time) and I drove to the vet hospital to have him immediately checked out. After a long, thorough examination, the vet working in the ER there came to explain that Othello had a blood clot in his heart. I did not expect this. Othello is an old kitty in that he is almost 16 years old and has many other health concerns, including diabetes, chronic kidney disease and possible cancer. In fact, last winter, he was given only 2-3 months to live. Therefore, I was prepared for many possibilities but not a heart condition. Last night, he stayed at the hospital to receive pain medication, oxygen to help his labored breathing and to monitor him. This morning, another test confirmed the original diagnosis. Still another test showed that he is suffering from significant heart disease as well as another heart condition which causes blood clots to form. In fact, there is another blood clot waiting to burst. At this point, he is in heart failure and is oxygen dependent. There really isn’t any option left so I chose to let him go and to say goodbye.
I have received so many supportive messages in the last few hours that I’m tremendously grateful for. One of the supporters included my sister who said a very wise thing to me. She told me that my job now is to celebrate his life and the joy that he brought to me. She is absolutely right. Yes, today might be about grieving and loss but tomorrow it is about celebrating. So, what does all of this personal drama have to do with Duran Duran? Many things actually.
One of the random things I have thought about in my state of grief is the post that my blog partner and friend did a few months ago regarding a video that Nile Rodgers had put up on twitter that showed the last performance of Bernard Edwards before his death (see blog post here). This led her to wonder if this is the last time for Duran Duran. As the members of Duran Duran (and us!) have gotten older, I think we have all begun to wonder when the end will be. In most cases, the end means the end of the band, but it can mean the end of their lives. I know that we are lucky as a fanbase to have a band that continues to write and play music and that all of the members, past and present, are still with us. I try to be grateful for that each day. This leads me to think about the new album, All You Need Is Now.
This new album and single of the same name seems to be expressing an idea that this is the time to go for whatever and grab it. It isn’t about waiting for the future but about cherishing the present and even cherishing what was good about the past, such as loving the music “like we did when we were younger”. That is a message that is often difficult to truly understand unless faced with a loss like I am today. Maybe this is the lesson that I need to pay attention to: cherish what was good about the past and grab a hold of the present without concern about the future. I hope that my Duranie friends will join me in this. Now, isn’t the time to be cynical or overtly critical but to enjoy what you have. In this case, “stay with the music, let it play a little longer.” While I can’t stay with Othello, I can stay with the things that I truly enjoy. I openly admit that I enjoy Duran Duran. I enjoy their music and I’m entertained by their personalities. While the fandom can drive me crazy, I also love being a part of it. I will embrace the past with both Duran and with Othello. I will also celebrate them as well. It is the least I can do.