I’m having a difficult time writing today, and that’s at least partially because I’m under the gun with timing. The other issue is that today is the private memorial for my mom’s partner.
Even after his death, I’m still grappling with what to call him. He was a good friend to my mom, a sort of companion, and he kind of lived with my mom too. I say “kind of” because he and my mom live at the same senior complex, but he kept his own apartment downstairs. Yet, he spent the night at my mom’s most of the time. They weren’t married or anything, and so when it boils down to it – I don’t really know how to categorize their relationship. It’s weird.
My parents were married for 48 years before my dad died. I embraced the idea of my mom getting involved with this other man, and he became part of our family in many ways. But, he and I were never very close. He was just that way I suppose, and now with his passing, I have to help my mom pick up the pieces and move on. Again. Not an easy task.
So, my mood is less than stellar I suppose. That also makes it tough to write. I’m wishing I were on a plane headed for Vancouver for a weekend of Duranie fun. Since that cannot happen, I think I’m just going to pick some videos to watch instead.
I think Pressure Off is pretty appropriate.
Rio always puts me in a better mood
Careless Memories kind of lets me work through some anger
Serious…because it doesn’t have to be serious
Crocodile Tears by Dom Brown goes here because I said so
And I’ll finish with Late Bar because sometimes, I just need it.
I won’t lie, I’ll be glad when this is over. There’s been a lot going on that I haven’t been able to talk about here, and today is going to give me some closure that I need in order to move forward. The service will be very short because it will be just my family there with my mom, but I think it will take all of us a very long time to actually move on.
But, these videos will help me this afternoon, so I plan to sit and watch!
And for those of you headed to Vancouver this weekend, I hope you have a blast!! Safe travels to everyone!