It seems like things have gotten a little out of whack since I left. First, we have tweets from TV Mania that no one can really figure out. Then, today, a rumor starting going around about John Taylor leaving the band. Relax, dear readers, this rumor has already been debunked by DDHQ, by calling it a “lie”. Anyway, the point of the blog could be about how easy it for rumors to get started and spread, especially during downtime when we (fans) start to feel like we don’t know what is happening. We begin to speculate as to what is going on and rumors, sometimes, provide answers to the unknown. I could also blog about how posters who mentioned this rumor were treated. Yet, most of these exchanges were taking place while I was at work. Thus, I am sure that I missed some, if not most, of what took place. Nope, this blog is going to be a simple one, which is my reaction to all of this.
I found myself extremely frustrated by this rumor. Why? I was frustrated for a variety of reasons. First, of all things to be rumored, it has to be about John’s place in the band?! Really?! My favorite player?! It just made my stomach tie in knots. Then, I just found myself frustrated by our fandom. Lastly, I was just plain frustrated that I couldn’t ease back into Duranland. What I needed was some cool something, some exciting something to get me excited by the future…to get me thinking about all things fabulous connected to Duran. What I got was the opposite. I didn’t find myself wanting to get to twitter or facebook to see and read about what was happening. I found myself wanting to avoid Duranland. I wanted nothing to do with it. Heck, even blogging today has been tough. I have started three times and even now I wonder if the blog sounds terrible, uninterested, bored, uninspired.
I realize that fandom isn’t always hearts and flowers and I don’t want it to be. Yet, I don’t want to read about rumors, especially upsetting rumors like that even when they are proven untrue right away. I also don’t want to read about people’s reactions to the rumors or to the debates that I’m sure it inspired. I don’t want to see how badly, if at all, fans were treating other fans. There are days and times I just want to bury my head in the sand and not see or hear any of the negative. I don’t want any drama. I admit it. Tell me I’m not the only one!
Part of my desire to put blinders on is because I had a great trip and this trip had nothing to do with Duran. Thus, as I move my brain back to reality, back to Duranland, I don’t want the crappy parts of being a Duranie. I need the fun parts of being a Duranie. Is that too much to ask???