Watch anything good lately? Do anything fun? I did! Yesterday, I was able to catch the two new specials on Duran Duran that aired on BBC Four. Thanks to friends who pointed me to tvcatchup.com I was able to watch! I had to watch while the shows aired, which was fine. Luckily, I had time to do so. As I watched, Rhonda did as well, which allowed us to exchange our reactions via Twitter and text messages. If you haven’t had to chance to watch, I recommend heading over to Duran Duran Argentina’s Facebook page here as both videos can be found there!
When thinking about this blog, I pondered which direction should I go. Should I review the shows themselves? I could even though I didn’t watch for that purpose. No, I wanted to just enjoy. That doesn’t mean that I didn’t take notice to various things like neither Warren nor Dom weren’t mentioned or that whole albums were left out. Yet, I didn’t want to let those things bother me. Therefore, I don’t think I want to review the shows in that way. I could at a later time but…not right now. I would want to rewatch them first before, anyways.
Clearly, the focus of the blog has to be something else. After I got done watching yesterday, I tried to get back to my to do list but I found myself thinking about how much has changed and what hasn’t. When we started this blog, we had this idea that we would celebrate fandom, work to understand it as well as do the same with Duran Duran and our fan community. This meant that we were critical at times, held up mirrors to ourselves and fellow fans, etc. Looking back, fandom felt super important to me. It was at the top of my list. Now, I cannot say the same. It has nothing to do with Duran Duran or even fandom. No, it has more to do with my life and circumstances out of my control. My priorities have changed, which has caused my relationship with fandom to shift.
When fandom was essential, I felt like I had the freedom, the time, the ability to be a critical thinker, to be someone who loves to analyze what I saw, heard and read. Now, fandom needs to do something different for me. It must be the source of joy, fun, and love. As Rhonda and I watched the shows yesterday, both of us were reminded of why we love this band so much. When I watch shows that capture the band’s history, not only do I get to hear so much great music but I’m also reminded of their history, which in many ways feels like mine. As the band talked about Ordinary World, for example, I instantly thought back to when that song captured my attention and meant the world to me as I adjusted to a significant change. When the reunion came up, Rhonda right away pointed that this is when our story started. All of this fills my heart with a joy that I struggle to describe.
Then, of course, the history of the band was followed with the band members sharing their influences. Before that show started, I didn’t know if I was going to like it. I worried it would be them introducing something and then watching that something for awhile. I figured that the band would be talking only for a couple of minutes. Instead, it was like watching a conversation between them, reminding me of the clear friendship between them. Likewise, it showed their personal sides rather than the famous, rock star sides. I loved it.
What did all of this tell me? Some things have not changed. I love Duran Duran as much as I ever have. The best time is sharing that love with friends even if it is just through social media or text messaging. That said, because of where I am at, fandom, Duran Duran needs to stay in that “joy only” box. I cannot see myself getting upset about any little detail that might have annoyed me or made me question this, that or the next before. No, Duran is just going to be my fun, happy place.