I can remember the day that my husband first brought up the idea of writing a blog.
The past eight years have kind of flown by. It was very easy for me to get caught up in the whirlwind cycle of it all. When we first began writing, it was during the tail end of recording All You Need is Now. We followed the promotion, then the touring. Life was a roller coaster, the band had a rough go of it at times. We were able to follow it all, and the words came rather easily most of the time. I absolutely adored writing the blog, and never had more fun than I did during most of that album cycle. It seemed like the fun should never end, but of course it did when Nick became ill a few shows before the end of their final leg of shows here in the US. Then they went home. I think that’s when I realized that blogging wasn’t quite as easy as I may have thought.
Sometimes I worry about running out of things to say. It used to be that I would push myself to put something, anything out on the blog every single day. We had puzzles, games, videos, anything we could think of to fill the space and time. I realize now though that part of our story – that of Amanda and I – is getting through the slow periods of every day life. It isn’t so much the touring that makes any of us great long time fans (although I think everyone agrees those blogs are the best!), it is grappling with fitting fandom into every day life for forty years. It is going from album through to album, waiting in anticipation for what will come next without forgetting what came before.
Sure, there are times when I’m antsy and wish they’d hurry so that I can get busy planning for the next crazy weekend. Who doesn’t? I don’t even have time OR money right now, but I miss my friends. Reality speaks (very) loudly over my fantastical dreams of getting away for a girls weekend. Even so, those dreams are nice interludes between packing boxes. I am sure Amanda would say the same. She is extremely busy gearing up for the November election, and fitting that in with the all-consuming job of teaching. Eventually though, when the time is right, we’ll be on the phone or Skype again and have plenty to catch one another up on, and before we know it – we’ll be talking about new music and touring.
As I look back over the past eight years, I think I’ve learned how to roll with the ebb and flow of album cycles. I’m also far more grateful for the band’s career than I might have been seven or eight years back. It was easy to just assume they would keep going forever, when in fact at this point – they’ve got nothing left to prove to anyone, least of all their fans. I don’t know what motivates them now. except the love of music and being Duran Duran. I think it must be incredibly difficult to get back into the studio and have a blank slate staring at them. One has to have pretty strong motivation and conviction to keep hammering at it for decades on end, don’t you think?
I’ve had people ask why we keep blogging. For me, I write because it has become a habit, and it is therapeutic. The idea of writing every day keeps me connected to the community. Even when my posts make people really angry, or when I get hate mail as a result – I learn something about myself in the process. Handling hate, accepting constructive criticism, realizing that I have the right to protect myself, and even learning to apologize, are all things that writing this blog continues to teach me. I think that I keep writing because I like the challenge.
I’m curious to see how the blog evolves from here, particularly as I move from a suburb to the country. Will my writing change as my life moves forward? I’d still like to have something on fandom published, but I don’t know how or when that will happen. I’m not putting those kinds of heavy goals on myself, but I would like to get back at it sometime. Maybe I’ll write something about homeschooling, instead. I don’t know. I’ve thought about starting a brand-new blog about homeschooling, and even our move from the OC to the country. I would like to go to the UK again for the 40th anniversary in 2020, whether or not the band actually plays. I feel like I have more to experience there.
Not terribly long ago, I used to believe I really wanted to meet and talk with every band member. Deep down, I was sure that my life wouldn’t be complete until I did. I am a part of Daily Duranie, I’ve blogged about being a fan for years. How could I not meet them? I don’t know that I feel that way any more. I used to think the pinnacle of fandom, was being one of the lucky few invited backstage, or seeing the show from the wings. What I’ve come to accept and embrace, is that I’ve had an incredible time being a fan. I’ve gotten to be up front, I’ve heard them play my favorite songs live, several times. I don’t know that I need to meet all of them or even have pictures with them to make any of the rest of it more real. I actually like being in the audience, being a part of the crowd, and taking it all in. There is nothing like being in that electric atmosphere. The sound and energy reverberating off of the hundreds, if not thousands of other humans in the room. All gathered for one purpose.
Why wouldn’t I want to keep blogging about that?