When I hear that line or even read that line, I have two thoughts that come into mind. The first one usually makes me laugh as I tend to think about a bad hangover! Now, I know that I can’t be the only one who is a little less than excited to face bright lights after a long night of celebrating. Admit it. Most of you have been there, too, right? Of course, you have. 😉 This is very Duran Duran, too, isn’t it? After all, Duran is the “band designed to make you party.” The second thought reminds me of all of those mornings driving to work. I leave for work early. Too early. Way too early. I’m not a fan of the morning. I would be a happier person if I could work at night or, at least, later in the day. Anyway, I also drive east into the sun for most of the fall and the spring. Thankfully, the upper Midwest has a lot of winter so the rest of the school year, I drive in the dark. This sunlight truly is the light shining so bright in my eyes. Literally. I tend to look at this line about my attitude in the morning at work as well. I can be positive to begin with and hate when what should be positive becomes a negative. The bright light should be good but could be used in such a way to hurt. Let’s face it. We all have frustrations at work, at times, just like the light shining in one’s eyes!
Of course, this line could be thought of in a non-literal, more metaphorical sense. Shining a light on something reminds me about how something can be brought to one’s attention. If the something being brought to one’s attention is a negative, it can definitely hurt. I can imagine that this is how Duran probably feels when some aspect of their work is examined, placed under a light, so to speak. In some cases, of course, this could be fine. The light could showcase, highlight, spotlight something deemed wonderful. Yet, what happens when this light shows something less than positive? What happens when it shows a fault, a problem, a less than perfect example of something? I can imagine how much that hurts. After all, anyone creative, anyone willing to share a part of themselves with others runs the risk of exposing oneself to criticism and to rejection. I know that I feel that every time I post. What if someone doesn’t like it? What if someone thinks my writing is terrible? What if someone disagrees? What if, what if, what if…The fear of this light can be a killer. I know that I’m worried about the reaction our book is going to receive. Obviously, I’m proud of it and I know that Rhonda is proud of it but will it hold up to scrutiny? That has yet to be seen. I feel the same way about the convention. Everything must be done well as I suspect that there will be judgment. Heck, I’m sure there is a ton of judgment already. Why did they have it in Chicago? Why is it in October? Why is it downtown? Why does it cost so much money? (Really, people. You try putting on an event like this for cheaper!)
This light of examination is often turned on to more than just people’s creative endeavors, isn’t it? Sometimes, the light shows a behavior. I think this is pretty tough to take, too. After all, none of us are perfect and we (meaning all of us–not just Rhonda and myself) certainly aren’t perfect when it comes to our fandom. I know that I feel like I have grown a lot and changed a lot in terms of how I look at fandom and how I act when it comes to my fandom. I’m sure that I would approach certain situations very differently now in 2013 than I might have in 2005. I’m not always proud of my behavior in the past but I like to think that I have learned from it. Nonetheless, I think the blog posts about fans and fan behaviors have often gotten the most response and the most negative response, at times, simply because people think that we are the light shining on one’s actions, showing something, or some behavior, that hurts to have exposed. Trust me when I say that none of our blog posts have ever been written to hurt someone. Never. We do write blog posts that question people’s assumptions or thought processes, though. We do question behavior of fans but know this. We questions fans in a big old general sense, in a collective, in a group. We aren’t questioning individuals. We like to have these discussions to grow, to learn. We obviously hope that you do, too. Nonetheless, we do recognize that this isn’t always easy or painless just like that light. It can be way too bright.