What is odd, at least to me, is that I have had a general sense of unease about going on another trip since August. I pushed the feelings aside and remained steadfast until I began to see that things around this house, in my real life so-to-speak, needed more attention than my fandom. That is when I gave in to my sense of dread and admitted that I truly could not go to the UK this weekend. As soon as I made the final decision, the nagging feeling I had in me since August went away and I could better focus on the tasks I had at hand.
Last Thursday, I received word that one of my younger “second” cousins had passed away suddenly. He was only 24, and from what I have been told, he had been sick with pneumonia. He had called his mom (who is a nurse) to ask about taking something to fight the fever that he couldn’t seem to get rid of, and she suggested that he take some Advil (Ibuprofen). The next thing she knew, a few hours later she received a phone call from his girlfriend saying that she had come home only to find him dead. Naturally my family was very shocked. No one ever expects someone so young to die.
As a result, I am packing to get in a car and travel tonight with my mom along with the rest of my immediate family to the funeral, which will be held tomorrow. Had I not canceled my trip to the UK for the convention, I wouldn’t be going to the funeral. I would feel horrible about going to a party while the rest of my family was grieving. It’s funny how things work out.
I really hope that all of the fans who are attending the convention have an outstanding time. I really do wish I could have been there. Birmingham is a special place, and I can’t think of a better setting to celebrate the band who brought us all together, along with the friendships we’ve made along the way. This is a unique opportunity for everyone, and I really hope you all make the most of it!