Returning to Now

If all had gone according to plan, I would be packing for another trip to the UK right now.  I would have left this afternoon from LAX to Heathrow, and I would have arrived Friday morning ready to meet my partner-in-crime for another fun trip. Truthfully, I was insistent about this trip since the convention was announced.  Never did I consider that I would NOT be going, but alas… I am not packing, and I will not be leaving this afternoon, nor arriving at Heathrow in the morning.

What is odd, at least to me, is that I have had a general sense of unease about going on another trip since August.  I pushed the feelings aside and remained steadfast until I began to see that things around this house, in my real life so-to-speak, needed more attention than my fandom. That is when I gave in to my sense of dread and admitted that I truly could not go to the UK this weekend.  As soon as I made the final decision, the nagging feeling I had in me since August went away and I could better focus on the tasks I had at hand.

Last Thursday, I received word that one of my younger “second” cousins had passed away suddenly.  He was only 24, and from what I have been told, he had been sick with pneumonia.  He had called his mom (who is a nurse) to ask about taking something to fight the fever that he couldn’t seem to get rid of, and she suggested that he take some Advil (Ibuprofen).  The next thing she knew, a few hours later she received a phone call from his girlfriend saying that she had come home only to find him dead.  Naturally my family was very shocked. No one ever expects someone so young to die.

As a result, I am packing to get in a car and travel tonight with my mom along with the rest of my immediate family to the funeral, which will be held tomorrow.  Had I not canceled my trip to the UK for the convention, I wouldn’t be going to the funeral.  I would feel horrible about going to a party while the rest of my family was grieving.  It’s funny how things work out.

I really hope that all of the fans who are attending the convention have an outstanding time.  I really do wish I could have been there. Birmingham is a special place, and I can’t think of a better setting to celebrate the band who brought us all together, along with the friendships we’ve made along the way. This is a unique opportunity for everyone, and I really hope you all make the most of it!


3 thoughts on “Returning to Now”

  1. Rhonda-
    I am so sorry to hear of your's and your family's loss. Please extend my deepest condolences to the rest of your family. My daughter's 24yr old cousin (my ex-husband's nephew) died a couple of years ago very suddenly too so I can appreciate the devastation this can be to a family. Big hugs, safe travels and many prayers to you. -Julianne

  2. I've been sad too that I wasn't able to go to the convention either. I know that everyone that is going will have a blast, and I cant wait to read about it and see the cool pictures. On another note, I'm really sorry about your cousin. I'm glad you're going to be able to say your goodbyes at the funeral. Hang in there:)

  3. Thank you very much. Truthfully I really did not know him well – I saw him a few times over his childhood at family get togethers and things. I do know his mom much better though, since her mother and my mother are sisters – so I am going as support for her. I can't imagine what it must be like for her. 🙁

    I am looking forward to hearing all about the convention and seeing pictures too, Lori. I am sure it's going to be an excellent time! -R

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