I have been back from tour for almost 2 weeks. Since then, I have noticed something strange with myself, something different than before I left. This something new isn’t bad and really hasn’t caused me much grief or pain. Yet…I fear…that it might. What is it? I have this uncontrollable urge to listen to the album, Paper Gods, over and over and over. It is bad. I’m not going to lie. I have attempted to switch to something else–anything else…a different Duran album, shuffle, Brandon Flowers, John Taylor solo and still I find myself with that itch. You all know that itch. It is when you find your fingers hover over the iPod or phone or stereo or whatever musical device you might have anytime it plays something NOT off Paper Gods. At that moment, it takes all self-control not to change the song. It is like having obsessive-compulsive disorder but a super duper specific one. So, what is the deal?! How did this started? How do I stop it? HELP!
I figure that the first step is admitting that I have a problem. I do. I cannot stop listening to Paper Gods. I think my cat is sick of it. He gives a weird meow whenever it plays. Heck, I think the drivers on my morning commute must recognize it by now simply from how loud I have been playing it. (It is a good waker-upper!) Even when I am not listening to the music, I start singing songs in my head, thinking about lyrics. It is not good. I am definitely distracted by this and somehow, I doubt my boss would be very excited by this.
The next step, I think, would be to figure out the cause, the origin of the problem. Since I didn’t have it before the tour, I have to think that it happened WHILE on tour. Now, I don’t really remember any weird conversations with Rhonda or Heather or Shelly or any of the other numerous friends who I talked with that could have led to this condition. Yet, I did have a sense that something was happening (and maybe it’s happening to you, you, you!) in Berkeley, California. I noticed it then, but I assumed it was all of the driving, the lack of sleep, the minimal meals we had been consuming. Maybe, it was the vodka. No matter the cause, I brushed it off and said that whatever was happening to me was due to an extreme situation, as being on tour is pretty intense.
Now that I think about it, I do remember getting a sense that something was happening to me right away, as soon as the first song on the setlist in Berkeley began. What was that song? Paper Gods. Hmm…what did I notice? I remember the instant that John’s bass kicked in. Huh. I hadn’t noticed that on the CD, at least not to that extent. As the song continued, it was like changing something from black and white to color or from standard TV to HD. Things got sharper, more noticeable. See what I mean:
Then, later on, I noticed something else when they played the song, What Are the Chances. This was a song that I had liked before the tour…but after seeing it performed live. I love it. It is one of those of songs that has been played over and over again since I returned. I remember watching Dom and John on stage. Dom played his heart out while John sang along to every word with a beautiful back drop behind them. Magical.
If that wasn’t enough to tell me something was amiss, I found myself saying the following statement after the show at the Agua Caliente casino, “I hate to say it, but I’m starting to like Danceophobia.” I hoped that people would assume that it was the vodka talking but I don’t think it was! That isn’t right?!? What I really think made me say this was that ridiculously dorky but oh-so-entertaining dance that John Taylor does during that song! Seriously! I think I could watch that for hours! Unfortunately, despite my constant searching on YouTube, I haven’t found a clip that really shows it! This is the best I found! 🙁 Anyone got a better clip that you can share with me?!? I’ll be your best friend (Not really, Rhonda! Don’t worry. I’m just saying that!)
I think the problem is really quite simple when I break it down. You see…I liked Paper Gods before tour. Yet, seeing so many tracks played live really got the album under my skin. Now, the question becomes: What do I do about it? I would like to say that I should plan more shows. I am ready. I know that I haven’t completely put away everything from this tour but I can do that when I die, right? I would much rather be planning the next! If not, I fear that winter really will march on this year. sigh