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It’s Beautiful, The Dying Sun

Hi everyone. I’m sorry I missed blogging yesterday.  My family said a difficult goodbye to my mom’s partner yesterday.  The process reopened wounds that had hardly closed for my entire family.  On the same token, seeing the love that my mom has for her friend was beautiful. It reminded me to take stock of what is really important.  Lyrics from “The Universe Alone” kept springing to mind throughout the day. They still do.

It seems like it was only a short time ago that I found myself thinking “Day One (without my Dad)”, as I pressed the buttons on our house phone to call my mom.  I needed to hear her voice in order to know she was OK.  Today I hesitated to make that call.  I know she’s fine, and I realize she really needs a little privacy to just be.  It wasn’t long before I saw an unsolicited email from her, confirming that yes – she’s fine, and she’s handling the loose ends (of which there are plenty).  This is simply a new beginning. None of us were eager to begin this new start, but somehow we’ve found ourselves doing just that.

That seems to be an ongoing theme for me lately. Finishing our book brought me to some sort of weird crossroad.  It’s going to take me some time to figure it all out.  At the very least, I’m coming to terms with the idea that it’s OK to start anew.  Writing my story closed the door on my past chapters of fandom, and I’m ready to see what is next. It’s probably not going to be the same as it once was, and that’s OK.

I’m very much looking forward to seeing friends I don’t have the opportunity to see often.  For me, THAT is what gives the trip it’s energy. Seeing Duran Duran is a bonus, but the friendships fuel me, and right now —I need all the love and energy I can get.  And, let’s face it, once I’m in front of Simon, John, Roger, Nick and of course…Dom, I think I’m going to be OK.  🙂  I need my favorite people and my favorite music for a little while. The timing couldn’t really be any better for a new beginning.

-R