Do I own books that I have not read? Of course. I have a long list of books I want to get through. Why don’t I? Well, like many of you, time isn’t always available to read. For me, I often have to stop reading things I want to read and read for work. That said, when I squeeze in time after reading things that I have to read, I read things I want to read first. Logical, huh? Obviously, when John’s book came out, everything else got pushed behind. His book was most important. Not only was it important because Rhonda and I planned to discuss it but because I wanted to read about his life. I wanted a better sense of who he is and what he thinks and feels. To me, that is my fan side coming out. I long to know as much as I can. I was never satisfied with just looking at the pictures in magazines–not even as a kid. I wanted to know who John Taylor was as a person, not a pin-up. As I have grown older, getting a glimpse into John’s personality has been even more of the focus. When I buy a magazine with him in it, it isn’t for the pictures anymore. It is for the article. If I get excited for new interview, you can imagine that I could barely contain myself when the book was released. Heck, Rhonda and I were so impatient that we downloaded copies from Amazon UK as it was released earlier in the UK than it was here. All of this said, I definitely realize that not everyone expressing their fandom in the same way. Maybe there are people who don’t want to know as much about John as a person or worried about reading the book.
John’s life, as we all know, wasn’t always pretty. He, like the rest of us, made some mistakes. Unlike the rest of us, he experienced tremendous fame and fortune, which allowed different kinds of mistakes than what some of us might make in our lives. Perhaps, some fans didn’t want to read about his less than positive choices. We all know that John had to deal with addiction. Maybe drug use bothers some fans. Likewise, he didn’t exactly stick to one woman in the 1980s. He had a lot of attention from a lot of people. Maybe, that part would bother people. In fairness, though, I have to say that John dealt with both topics of sex and drugs, tastefully. He was honest and forthcoming but didn’t overdo it or go into unnecessary detail. He said enough for us to understand. Nonetheless, while those topics do not bother me, I understand that they do others. Maybe, some fans were worried that reading the book would show John in a way in which they would lose respect for him or think less of him. Everyone wants to keep their idol as their idol. I get that. Again, though, I have to reassure people who haven’t read it yet. Everyone I know who has read it feels MORE respect and admiration for John, not less.
Obviously, though, the people going to one of John’s book talks and signings had to know that they couldn’t avoid some of those tougher topics. They knew that he might read about them or might be asked questions about them. For those fans, then, it couldn’t be that they didn’t want to know the darker side to John or his life. Maybe it was that they were willing to listen to them in order to do what…meet him, be in the same room with him? I don’t know. Help me out here. Maybe they didn’t want to read the book until after hearing the book talk. Maybe they didn’t want to be spoiled? Yet, from what I have seen, a number of people who went to signings still haven’t read it.
My point in this post isn’t to judge. I honestly want to understand why some people have chosen not to read it. After all, my big focus is fandom and understanding it. In particular, I want to understand our fandom. Some of us read the book immediately and have read it a few times now. Others haven’t. I know why I read it immediately and I’m just guessing as to why others haven’t. At the same time, I also want to encourage those who haven’t read it to do so. If you are a John Taylor fan, the book will make you more of a fan. Trust me.