The last few weeks haven’t been the best for me. I have had some issues with my teeth (that’s an understatement), which has resulted in a serious financial bloodletting. If that wasn’t enough, I have renewed frustration with my job and general feeling of being lost as I attempt to regroup and get back on track. As part of all of that, I have been so focused on my day-to-day existence, my “job” here and the overall game plan that I lovingly refer to my future and career that I started missing something. (By the way, if you notice, readers who pay attention and I know you are out there, I included another vague statement about the future. I assure you that there will be more information forthcoming soon.) So, what did I start to miss? Simple. I began to miss the reason for being here or, at least, the reason that brought me here. I started to miss the music. The truth is that I listen to music daily. That music is not always Duran Duran. I go for days without mentioning Duran other than on here or through the daily “tasks”. In some ways, I do feel like I live and breathe Duran, but, in others, I don’t feel that at all. I’m sure that there are plenty of fans who spend a lot more time each day on Duran than I do by listening to their music or looking at their pictures or watching footage. In that sense, I don’t feel like my life is very focused on Duran. Then, when I stop and look around at my life, I realize that a huge chunk of my existence is all about Duran. My goodness, I worry about this blog each and every day. Even on days that Rhonda blogs, I check in. I post the daily questions and the day in Duran history. Add on the time, energy and effort on a book in which Duran is the case study and multiple discussions surrounding fan conventions. When I think about all that, I realize how much my life is surrounded by and with Duran Duran and the fan community. I am so surrounded and engaged in my work that I forget, sometimes, what I’m a fan of.
The other day, I was driving and paying little attention to what music was on. It was snowing so the music was the last thing on my mind. Then, I noticed that All You Need Is Now, the album, began playing. It has held a position in my car stereo since it was released. Yet, if I have new music, that is usually played instead or my mp3 player just shuffles songs. I had almost forgotten that it was in there. As the first few notes played, I wondered how long it had been since I had listened to this album. Soon enough, memories began to flash in my mind from this most recent Duran era. This era has been such an important one to me and to Rhonda. We started this blog right before that album was released and documented so much of what happened, in our own way. Lucky us, we were able to attend many shows, including ones in very different places, from Biloxi, Mississippi, to Glasgow, Scotland. We were there when Simon lost his voice and witnessed the return. For us, here, we came out of our little hole in the fan community to allow ourselves to be heard by anyone and everyone. Meet ups were organized and a convention was organized and held. When I look back, I’m so amazed at everything we have done and everything that the band has done. Yet, why is it that I wanted to pay this close attention to everything the band did? Why did I want to stick my neck out in all the ways that we did? Why am I continuing down this road and even working to expand it? Simple. The music. I’m a Duran Duran fan. I’m a fan who absolutely loved All You Need Is Now. After this fresh listen of the album this week, I know that I still love it. I love all of the experiences I have had but I really love the music. I really do.
Then, yesterday, Rhonda reviewed Shadows On Your Side. This led us to talk briefly about the lyrics to this song and to a couple of others. I love those discussions. After 30 years, this band and their music is still providing me and my friends with things to talk about, things to discuss. This discussion began as Rhonda emailed me to tell me that she got something new from these lyrics by really looking at them for the review. She gained something despite having this song as part of her collection for decades. Truly, this is why we decided to reach out and join the community. We wanted to talk about the music. This, in turn, led us to think about the fan community and what we can do. The music started everything that we have done and will done. We fell in love with their music and still love it today. I’m so glad that I was reminded of this. I needed it. It is important and will continue to be important to remember as Rhonda and I continue with whatever this is and with whatever it will be.