If Duran Duran had a philosophy of life, I would say that it was to live in the moment. All you need is now, right? In interviews, they often claim not to look back at earlier times. They are happy where they are, doing what they are doing at that moment. During the All You Need Is Now era, I loved the idea of embracing the moment that I found myself in. I felt like this would help me appreciate the good in life and be happier. In theory, I believed I should follow this idea all of the time.
Now, in 2017, I cannot help to reject that way of life as much as I don’t want to. Unfortunately, I can’t embrace the now. I am unable, as things are tough and I’m not enjoying myself very much. Thus, I’m longing for the past, for the fun I experienced.
Two weeks from today, I’ll be in California. I’ll be with Rhonda and we will be anxiously awaiting the show in Rancho Mirage. The shows there will take place on an anniversary. Twelve years ago on March 17th, I began my very first Duran “tour”. I had seen the band before but that weekend marked the first time I traveled to see the band and the first time I saw more than one show in a weekend with other Duranies. A big part of me wishes that I could go back to March 17, 2005. To say that I had fun that weekend would be an understatement. It was so much fun that I keep going on tour in hopes to have a similar experience all over again!
Yet, I cannot go back. There is no time machine and I have no superpowers. It is 2017. I cannot change that. Yet, in two weeks, I will experience another tour, another chance to have serious fun. When I think back to that 2005 tour, I think about all of the little traditions that began then. We consumed a few adult beverages, got very little sleep, and couldn’t find the time to eat meals. Memories, experiences and quotes were captured on paper after I took a take home menu from a restaurant. If those little traditions weren’t enough, more were added with many tours after that.
In thinking about this upcoming tour, I could forget about the past and just live right now in 2017. I could also decide to re-embrace those traditions. I’m aware that my touring days are not going to last much longer. In fact, I wouldn’t be surprised if these shows aren’t some of my last. Heck, they could be my last because you just never know. I could go into these shows thinking about how sad it is that touring can’t last forever or that there might be other factors ending my “touring” life. I don’t want that. This little tour needs to be appreciated and loved, especially if it is one of the last tours ever for me.
My plan, then, is simple. As I move closer to these shows, I’ll remind myself of all our little traditions to make sure that I follow them. If these shows are some of my last, then, I’ll go out with a bang, even if it means looking back.